Pregnancy Diaries: Weeks 37, 38, and 39 (Baby #3)

Tomorrow morning I will be holding my precious little girl in my arms for the first time. I will get to stare into her eyes and take in her beautiful face and memorize every detail about her from the shape of her eyes to her cute button nose and perfect little pout. I am anxiously and impatiently awaiting for her arrival but nervous about being a mother to a daughter when I don't have a relationship  with my own mother. Motherhood has been an epic odyssey with many ups and downs, twists and turns, and constant "if's" and questionings of am I doing this right? I would say that 98% of the time I'm I think I'm not doing the best job that can. I have always been a hard critic on myself and only get harder on myself when it comes to mommy-hood skills. I need to learn to let this go and know that I am doing a much better job than my own mother ever did.

I have been trying to savor and enjoy these last few weeks of pregnancy even though I have had immense pelvic pressure from little lady lowering deeper and deeper in my pelvis. Trying to walk has become a pain in the butt. Her brothers sat much higher but it was often difficult to breathe. At least I can breathe this time around, right? My lower back pain has gone away but I am still having epic heartburn. She is going to come out with a lot of hair and I cannot wait to see her in her cute little hairbands and bows. 

I am still craving candy corn, chocolate, and have added ice cubes to the mix. I can not get enough of the ice cubes. I could eat them all day long. Most people would say that ice cubes and water taste the same. When you are pregnant, ice cubes have a different taste than regular old boring water. They taste amazing. I would happily eat ice cubes nonstop if I could. I love them! =D 

I am also happy to report that I only gained a whopping 43 pounds this pregnancy. I know it seems like a lot but I gained a lot of weight with Amari and Talan. Just think, tomorrow I will loose at least 20 pounds of baby weight but I will miss my baby bump very much even though I get to hold and meet my sweet baby girl. 

In the past few weeks Little Misses movements have increased now that she has gotten bigger and has been packing on the pounds. I often poke at her and can't help but giggle when she jabs back at me with her butt. I wonder what her personality will be like. I hope she won't be high-maintenance or a diva but a sweet little princesses with an angelic nature. Amari and Talan were sweet babies. I hope she will be the same. 

So far Little Miss is 18 to 21 inches tall and weights around 6 to 10 pounds and is the size of a watermelon! Yikes... Tomorrow can't come soon enough. I am ready to meet my daughter.