Single Parenting: The Ish Is Hard!

Two weeks ago I was a single parent while Trev was up in Seattle/Everett area for his new job. I knew it was going to be hard but I had no idea just how hard it was going to be. I didn't even last 24 hours before I felt like I was about to loose my damn mind. I have a whole new perspective for single parenting. The ish is hard. Honestly, I don't even think hard is the right word to describe the experience. I couldn't imagine parenting on my own. I have mad respect for those who do it.

There were a lot of lows and some highs; Amari is extremely challenging to parent. We are already aware that he has sensory processing issue that he was diagnosed with from when he was younger. I finally caved and picked up a book to better educate myself and to find more tools and resources to help him. The lows consisted of outrageous tantrums, head banging, and him calling me a sh*t because I took my Iphone away from him. I wanted to rip my hair out. I was embarrassed when my nosy ass nieghbor knocked on my door. I was upset cause my child wouldn't listen to me. I wept a lot that week. I have never been so frustrated in all my life. One of the highs of the week was that we were able to get him into school earlier than expected. Instead of attending school that Friday, he got to start on Wednesday and had an absolute blast. It was great for the both of us to spend some time away from each other for a few hours. He got to play, let out some steam, and socialize with new friends. He is my social little butterfly and his behavior was a little better once we got him home. I still have some soul searching to do to find the best way to discipline him. I know for a fact that spankings and yelling at him don't work. I don't know what will but I'm down to try anything that will work for him. I'm hoping that a referral to Emmanuel Children's hospital to a behavior specialist comes through and that a few books I have been combing through will help me out. 

My Great Grandmother was a champ and raised four kids on her own after raising her own two daughters and her grandchildren. She parented for three generations up until she passed away in 2001. I am glad that I'm not parenting Amari and Talan on my own. I appreciate having a partner like Trevor to help me along the way. I definitely have a new outlook on life. Single mothers, fathers, aunties, uncles, grand folks, or even oldest sibling I have the upmost RESPECT for you. I definitely could learn a thing or two from you. You are my heroes.